CLOSED MIND AND HANDS
Jesus: "What are you holding on to, Gregg?"
Me: "Oh, not anything really."
Jesus: "Then, just let it go."
Me: "Oh, no, I can't to that."
Jesus: "What are you hesitant about?"
Me: "Well...well. Well, it would just hurt too much!"
Jesus: "I know, I know."
Me: "Oh Jesus, I feel so dirty, so ashamed, so hurt."
Jesus: "I know, I know."
Me: "Oh Jesus, I can't let others see what I'm holding."
Jesus: "But you can let Me see. You can trust Me."
Me: "But Jesus, I can't, I just can't do this!"
Jesus: "I know you can't Gregg. But let Me put My hand on your closed hand. See the scar in My hand. Feel the life in My touch."
OPEN HEART AND HANDS
Me: "Oh dear Jesus! Yes! I am opening up my hands to You! And oh my goodness! Look! Look! There was no guilt and shame in my hands all along! It just felt so much like it! Oh Jesus! I really am free, aren't I?!"
Jesus: "Oh yes, Gregg. I took all your guilt and shame away through My cross. And I have buried them forever."
Me: "But Jesus, I still often feel the pain of all the guilt and shame and regrets."
Jesus: "That's ok, Gregg. Be free to feel. Be free to feel the pain. You can entrust your feelings to Me. Be free to cry. I'll cry with you. I am your gentle Healer."
Me: "Oh Jesus, oh Jesus! Thank You, dear Jesus!"
Jesus: "Now, with your open hands, receive all that I have for you and all that I am to you...and walk with Me."
Me: "I do love you Jesus."
Jesus: "I know you do. And I love you, Gregg. I will never leave you nor forsake you. I will be with you when you will surely be tempted again to hold on tightly to other feelings, hurts, thoughts, memories, rights, and coping habits. It is in those times you and I will have the precious opportunity to fellowship together in My Garden of Gethsemane. This is where you can open your hands and heart to your Father with Me.
Me: All quiet now, pondering these living words of Jesus. Listening with a grateful and relieved heart. Looking into the loving and accepting eyes of Jesus. Resting in Him. Listening for more.
Jesus: "Always remember, Gregg, I not only hold you in My hands, I live in your new heart."
CLOSING
I really believe God relates to us by our personal name. God bless you in your precious walk with the Lord this week!